Drunk "confessions" are the best. They almost never say much about the person who utters them, but they make for great conversation pieces. Like for instance, this lovely tidbit I received this morning via Kik:
Captain Sexy Pants (3:14am): I want to fall in love w someone (yes Im drunk but I watched a chick flick and I want that)
Me: Best drunk Kik I'll ever get
CSP (9:44am): Oh god. I think it would have been better if I said I want love but not the commitment.
Me: And he's sober now.
CSP: Lol you say that w such a sense of loss
Me: Women around the world just sighed... a sad sad sigh
But seriously, is "love" so daunting that men in sobriety's light must run for the hills? Is it love then when passion is hampered by necessity and duty? Or is it another animal entirely? I can't say I've been in love before. I can't really say I've even come close. So I'll use what I do know to say that I love my mom. And I love my dad. And I know that if they were ever in need, and I could change that, I would in an instant. My parents never "expect" anything from me but always the utmost of me. As an almost adult, I don't ever need anything of them. It's love, I hope, that keeps them calling, and sending care packages, and submitting funny little requests (like when my dad asks me to go on blind dates with random Chinese boys).
Love isn't just a feeling and a lust for someone. It's an embodiment of your outward expressions. It's about anticipation, and consideration, and near-anxiety for someone else's needs and wants. But it's about all these things in the sense that living these things out makes oneself content and happy and loved as well. So at the end of the day, I go with Jennifer Aniston, from The Breakup. "I want you to want to do the dishes." Because then if you don't, it's just a commitment. A duty. No one wants that. Especially not Captain Sexy Pants.
Look up the different greek words for love and their different meanings. Specifically, "agape." C.S. Lewis has a book called "The Four Loves," as well. I have not yet read it, but I do know that he's brilliant and its probably awesome, if you wanna pick up somethin on the subject :) or I can just tell you about it after I do read it.
ReplyDeleteMy list of "books to read" has gotten ridiculously long. Keep me posted on when you get to it :) Glad to see you're back in the blog world!
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